My My Morphine Bye Bye

So I quit my morphine pain medicine I believe on Tuesday morning Aug 31.  No big deal.  I slept alot on Tuesday because I was so exhausted from Jill's visit.  Lovely lovely time spent with her, but I was WHOOPED!! So Wednesday came along.  I felt kind of sick, I blamed it, still, on the exhaustion from the fun filled 5 days.  More fun than I've had since my accident, and WAY more physical activity.  Anyways, kind of irritated all day, felt blah, no big deal.  Thursday flew by, but Thursday night started what I now believe to be the morphine withdrawal stage. UGH.
Thursday night/Early Friday morning when I went to bed, I could NOT fall asleep for about 2-3 hours.  Restless, mind tired, but body completely awake. Kept yawning.  Sneezing too. Oh and I havent sneezed since my accident, (I'm pretty sure anyways) because when I sneeze, it hurrrrrts so bad. But I kept sneezing. Weird.  So somehow, I don't remember how I fell asleep. Woke up that Friday morning. Felt fine.  Had a good day.
Friday night/Early Saturday morning. AWFUL.  Put myself to bed around 130 am, but did not fall asleep until 6 or 7am. :( UGH. Restless, muscle spasms, mind so so tired, ( I had even taken a sleeping pill) sneezing, constant yawning, hot, then freezing, fan off, fan on, lay with pillow, no pillow, pillow under my leg, pillow on floor, pick pillow up, try to attempt to sleep on my side (failed miserably), had brillant idea-sleep on the living room couch! Its comfy and I can always fall asleep there (failed three different attempts), back hurts, every time I lay down my tailbone hurts, goosebumps, muscle ache, sweating, blowing nose constantly, shaking legs super fast to release the energy,(try to make myself tired), standing up, sitting down, laying down, up, down, up, down......JUST AWFUL. oh and I kept replaying the movie I watched right before I fell asleep, Doubt, and kept imagining I was a nun. A freaking nun. I was going, literally, CRAZY. It finally occured to me, after restlessness for 4 or 5 hours that this HAS to be some sort of withdrawal from morphine.  I googled it. This is the list:

• Restlessness
• Watery eyes
• Runny nose
• Goose bumps
• Sweating
• Yawning
• Mydriasis
• Muscle twitching
• Kicking movements
• Severe back ache
• Abdominal ache
• Aching legs
• Hot flashes
• Cold flashes
• Insomnia
• Nausea
• Vomiting
• Diarrhea
• Head cold symptoms
• Sneezing
• Increased body temperature
• Increased blood pressure
• Increased respiratory rate
• Increased heart rate

So I had, lets see,  14, give or take, symptoms. Wow. Symptoms I didnt even think about until I read this list. Like the sneezing, and yawning. I thought I was just tired, and allergic to something. Weirrrrrd. Oh and they say the most severe of the symptoms happen between 36-72 hrs.  I hope the worst was last night and from here it'll be better. Anyways.  Today is or was Saturday and while I am up and awake I am fine.  Lets just hope, tonight when I fall asleep it'll be somewhat better. We'll see I guess.....But all I have to say, is I can't imagine what crackheads or meth addicts or any other sort of drug addicted people go through.  My little dose of morphine that I took twice a day, that was nothing, I cannot imagine the pain a person goes through on heavy, more powerful drugs.  Thats a scary thought.  And after my little withdrawal experience, I hope to God I never experience anything worse.